24th Sunday in Ordinary TimeSeptember 12, 2021
Very Rev. Denis Robinson, OSB
St. Peter is in a pickle. Perhaps that is not unusual, it seems that Peter is always at least flirting around the briny lip of the pickle jar. The first pope has all of the answers of course. You are the Christ. No futzing about with Elijah, Moses or the Prophets. It is straight and simple. You, Jesus are the anointed one, the One sent by God to save not only Israel, but the wretched Gentiles as well. You are HIM and I, Peter, recognize you as such. But there is more to the story. Peter is also the impetuous one, the one who tries getting out of the boat, getting into the boat, walking on water, bumbling around with the other disciples. His profession of faith is profound, but just seconds later, the Rock has become the stumbling block, Satan. His proclamation of the reality of Jesus is on target, but it won’t be long
We know that in the future Peter will deny the Lord three times in the heat of the passion, a denial that will cause him bitter regret.
We know that that denial will come with the inquisition of a slave girl. We know that the rooster’s crow must have signaled the initiation of Peter’s being haunted every morning for the rest of his life.
Peter is in a pickle because of his inconstancy, his lack of resolve, his cowardice.
We know that Peter’s confession at the end of Saint John’s Gospel, his reconciliation likewise is not without compromise. We are told Peter’s feelings were hurt because Jesus asked him a third time if he loved him, a question that seemed apropos to the man who denied he even knew his Lord.
Peter was a messy person. He was a braggart. He was a stumbler. He was an ear chopper.
Peter was and is in a pickle.
And you know what? That’s fine because we are in a pickle quite a bit of the time too.
We’re in a pickle
Peter presided and presides over a messy Church, a sometimes braggart Church, an often weak Church.
We wish that we could express the pristine quality of the Church, a perfect institution without compromise to its fabric, without stain to its reputation.
But truly we live in a Church often smeared with controversy, with scandal; financial scandals, sexual scandals, power scandals.
We hope that the future of our Church, a future that lies certainly in the hands of the Lord, but also uncertainly in human hands, our hands, will find a more sacred path, a more sanctified way through the world, will be for others what it truly must be, a beacon of hope in an ever-darkening landscape, the landscape of the human condition.
But really we know that we are also full of sour, pickley contradictions, each of us, in our lives we know that tension, that compromise of Peter that hears one minute the call of Jesus and in the next puts conditions on accepting that call, conditions of our own reckoning, our own construction.
We aspire to heights of achievement, to academic success, spiritual success, pastoral success, we want to be good, and true, and kind, we really do.
But actually we find ourselves forever visited by ghosts who haunt the back rooms of our lives, ghosts with names like doubt, despair, indifference, the PAST.
And we might give in, we might give up, we might give over until, unless we realize in one shocking moment of insight and revelation that this is the faith we celebrate.
It is messy faith, a faith impinged with the barbs of imperfection, like little shells in the scrambled eggs.
It is a human faith, divine certainly but also very human, built upon the faulty towers of our dreams and hopes, hopes and dreams that sometimes line up like soldiers on the divine battleground, but sometimes falter because they are the dreams and hopes that we wish to see, like Peter, rather than the hopes of Christ, the dreams of the savior.
Ours is a faith infused with the quality of divinity but parading itself across the meadows of this world in borrowed uniforms, glad rags.
Who are you? Who am I?
We are flawed, but striving for perfection
We are exhausted but searching for rejuvenation
We are mediocre but always aspiring to that arête, that excellence which stands at the heart of the Church’s mission, a mission founded on the confession of Saint Peter, a mission renewed daily in this chapel, renewed today for people in a pickle.
We are in a pickle
But, back to Peter for a moment.
Peter is also called. The pickled one is called and that, brothers and sisters is very good news.
Peter went on
Peter went on to move past his sin and move past his doubt and move past his weakness
Peter was called, called to the wonder of that Upper Room where a stymied and heartsick group of men and women mourned and lamented the decimation of their hope, the loss of their beloved on the cruel hill of Calvary, but Peter was called with them to hear that wondrous news, bourn by breathless women: He is alive. He is risen.
And Peter was called, called to that same Upper Room, on the day of Pentecost, called to open his mouth to receive the mighty wind of the Holy Spirit, to speak boldly in tongues to people longing to hear Good News, longing to hear sound doctrine, longing to hear the infallible voice uttering from the mouth of a flawed fisherman.
And Peter was called, called to proclaim the news of Jesus, the crucified one, the risen one, called to proclaim Him to the four corners of the world, called to be that messenger, that evangelist of the Truth.
And Peter was called, my brothers and sisters, to lay down his life in the Circus of Nero, on another hill, called Vaticanus, and from his tomb, from his very body the Church’s heart continues to beat today.
Peter was called. He is called
And so, are we. We are called, we pickled people. We are called.
We are hoping, loving, giving, desiring, fulfilling AND stumbling, faltering, cowering, but always called in Christ.
This is the faith of our mothers and fathers, those men and women who conquered bravely in the eschatological battle
This is the faith of that countless multitude of saints; unsung, unnamed that have gone before us living lives of fortitude, of strength in the Gospel of Jesus, proclaimed by Peter, proclaimed in a pickle.
This is the faith of sinners and cowards who yearn for better lives, better days, more holiness, more gratitude.
This is the faith of seminarians, teachers, students, doubters, wonderers, lovers, who know their weakness and their failures and are able to build upon the rock of those weaknesses and failures a solid understanding not only of who they are but who they must become to serve the weak, the fallowness of those yet-unseen vineyards that will comprise their fertile, evangelical fields.
Brothers and sisters, we are drawn here to this hill to celebrate the faith of Peter, not in observance alone but in participation, to push ourselves, to challenge ourselves to greater heights of love, greater breadth of service, greater depth of learning.
Drawn here to this place to understand what God has in store for each of us, a plan that outshines the feeble offerings of a world inundated in self-loathing that masquerades as self-love.
Drawn here to appreciate that the entirety of our lives, our futures, for generations to come depends upon our ability to answer a call that emanates today from this chapel, from this altar upon which is presented that Sacrament we worship and adore.
It is the cry of those oppressed for justice.
It is the sigh of those lying in the rubble of the twin towers of bigotry and evil conceit.
It is the plea of those deprived for life.
It is the appeal of those in need, those suffering, those multitudes of which we are of their number, who yearn for dignity, for bread, for hope.
Drawn here and standing on the promises of God, my brothers and sisters we pray with Peter:
Lord I believe, help my unbelief.
Brothers and sisters, Peter was the rock, but we are also the rock; Peter was the firm foundation upon which the hope of the world is built, the hope of our lives is constructed. And we are also that firm foundation, resting today on the confidence we have in this place, Peter was in a pickle, so are we, but therein lies the very core of faith. Flawed but saved and that is a sure hope.